Irreplaceable

Lately, I have been thinking a lot.
So much so I don't even know why.

And I was secretly wishing you will still be the one to tell me why.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011 , 3:13 AM

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?

These few days had been lovely hanging out with itchy.
Hahaha,
like I can't believe I sat still for 2 hours at the Singapore River, just talking and talking to him.

Ohwells.
This is a good start for me.
Haha.

Ain't I glad that he doesn't have Twitter!
Then I can curse him for all I want.
LOL!

Argh, itchy is still Dota-ing.
Shall get Dota from Kai tomorrow and start playing.

And I better win him like soon.
LOL.

Omg, all these staying-up-late nights are making me sicker and sicker by every second :(
Stupid itchy came to infect me with his flu :(
I hope I will get well soon!


xoxo
Crazy girl :)

Friday, March 25, 2011 , 2:21 AM

I guess I need you more than you need me,

So,
I was watching CSI Miami with Daddy in the afternoon.
Was kinda tired out by the whole Horatio marathon,
so yeah I became kind of moody.

Daddy started talking to me really softly and gently.

Daddy:
"Baby, why are you so so so moody these days. You haven't smile for so long. Will you let Daddy see you smile?"

Me:
"Huh?"

Daddy:
"I know you miss him. Don't think Papa don't know anything. I know you cry at night. And you drink so much, haven't even throw the bottles and cans yet. Papa don't wake up and stop you because I know you are very sad and I know you like to drink it off. I will not ask what really happened. Go find a better boy okay? I just want to see my baby smile and be really happy. I wish I can do something but I don't know what to do. Baby, be happy okay?"

Me:
"Ok."

And I ran off to the toilet and cry.

I don't know why I cried but I just did.
I think I just cried it all out.
Like for missing him way too much, for knowing he won't think of me or miss me at all, for being a weak girl, for being moody towards my family, for everything.

And all along,
I thought I was strong.
You proved me wrong.

Anyhow,
I love you Daddy.
Like really.
Thank you for telling me it will all be okay.

Monday, March 7, 2011 , 12:32 AM

谢谢你从来没有觉得我不够好

谢谢你从来没有觉得我不够好

谢谢你守护我的每一分每一秒

谢谢当天塌下来 你也会帮我顶着

冰的固执 水才会懂

终於让时间回过头来笑我们傻

但暴雨都要淋过才能逼得人成长

没有地久没有天长 没有最美的花

只有遗忘 能让眼泪流光

很爱过 很痛过 我们为了彼此而活过

你爱我 拥抱着我 却让我看不见星空

我们都 没有错 没有谁比较寂寞

我的世界早已经不是以前


也许以后再也没人比你更爱我

也许以后我也不可能再那样活

每当想起你的时候 快乐都比较多

也许快乐 是时间的幽默

很爱过 很痛过 我们为了彼此而活过

你爱我 拥抱着我 却让我看不见星空

我们都 没有错 没有谁比较寂寞

我的世界早已经不是以前

多少天 多少夜 爱一个人很难 爱自己更难

清晨醒来所有美梦都不见

很爱过 很痛过 我们为了彼此而活过

你爱我 拥抱着我 却让我看不见星空

我们都 没有错 没有谁比较寂寞

我的世界早已经不是以前


I wish,
you will still think of me once in a while,
and smile at every happy memory we both shared.

, 12:22 AM

The other half,

喝酒的伴

一起看电影的伴

早午晚餐的那个伴

朋友不能留得太晚

明天要上班


唱K的伴 一起去旅行的伴

听懂我的笑话的伴

我的生活

只差那个人就美满


快乐少一人分享

快乐就只剩一半

喝一碗汤

心怎么都不够暖

这张被单 这张睡床

再舒服都觉得太宽


没人分享

幸福就只剩一半

就算把日子都填满

节日却提醒我孤单


没有想法

有想法又能怎样

只能写部落格整晚

几个留言安慰不了

心里的遗憾


没有负担

原来也是种负担

自由多得让人心慌

你羡慕我

那要不要跟我交换


快乐少一人分享

快乐就只剩一半

喝一碗汤

心怎么都不够暖

这张被单 这张睡床

再舒服都觉得太宽


没人分享 幸福就只剩一半

努力把日子都填满

别来提醒 我的孤单


快乐少一人分享

快乐就只剩一半

喝一碗汤 心怎么都不够暖

这张被单 这张睡床

再舒服都觉得太宽


没人分享

幸福就只剩一半

就算把日子都填满

没人知道 我多孤单


Why do all I think about, still you?

, 12:04 AM

:(

Is it stupid if I say,
I will wait (for you or anyone) forever?

Saturday, March 5, 2011 , 1:11 AM

I'm tired of being alone.

下雨天了 怎么办 我好想你

我不敢打给你 我找不到原因

为什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉

沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停


期待让人越来越沉溺（疲惫）

谁和我一样 等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累


怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我 能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不出哪些差别

结局那还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉