I have kept trying to forget you.
and I think I succeeded at least 75%.
which is something good.
I kept tellimg myself you are not worth it.
I kept hating you like nobody's business.
I kept telling lies to people that I no longer like you anymore.
but I do still like you, that teeny weeny bit.
I DREAD going into the class.
and I am totally RELIVED that you are so far away.
was that fate?
or was that a great big joke from heaven.
i can't like you and yet i still.
zzz.
sometimes I find myself looney.
sometimes I find myself stoopid.
sometimes I find myself funny.
must I go to great lengths to forget a dumb idiotic AA woman.
oh yes I do , and I don't know why.
I am stupid , that's what I know.
zzz.
:X
Thursday, July 19, 2007
, 11:57 PM
if I could turn back the time, i will still do the same thing.
you may say I am a fool
you may say I am stupid
since I do have a lack of intelligence.
severe lack i mean.
and if I could turn back time, i will still love you.
no matter what, it is still at least a good experience for me.
i love you.
but time is a factor.
and so is my foolishness.
how stupid am I to not know you have a boyfriend.
how idiotic I am to continue loving you.
but it still is a great period of time for me.
i think.
it is time to say goodbye.
i give up.
not on you , but on myself.
i will reflect.
i will think.
think even harder since I am stupid.
i love you.
sodium.
:x
Labels: love, sodium
Sunday, July 15, 2007
, 4:08 PM
