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Welcome to my Suju lifeee
Yuliant Joanne Ivan Ryo Tan Tingyuan!
Seventeen since 10th July 2010!
Singapore Polytechnic Mass Comm Year 1!
Ex-St Nickolodean!

Loves <3
Fernando Torres!
Justin Bieber!
Big Time Rush - Logan&Kendall&James!
The Wanted - Nathan&Siva&Jay!
Anthony Neely!
Jay Chou!
Super Junior 15-strong!
SHINee - Minho&Taemin&Key!
SHINee Ring Ding Dong&Hello&Lucifer!
SNSD - Taeyeon&Hyoyeon&Seohyun&Tiffany&Yoona!
SNSD Run Devil Run&Oh&Gee&Genie&Hoot!
fx - Amber!
miss A - Fei&Suzy&Jia!
2PM - Nickhun&Junsu!

I wish I wish for all these,
Super Show 4!
A true prince who knows how to treat me right!
A bouquet of roses from you to me!
Pictures everywhere of you&me!
An awesome GPA grade (4.0 pls)!
To be on normal talking terms with Mum!

I'm just a click away, baby
When I'm bored, click here
say hello to goodbye, cause it's gone forever

Hey there stranger, how you been
Feels like I'm standing on the outside looking in
At the mess we left behind

And it's a long way to fall
I gave you everything I had
I gave it all

And then my heart was on the line

I can't hate you
Any longer
I know I'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go.

Say hello to goodbye, cause it's gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And I'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello...

And this is how it has to be
Cause it's a deadly combination, you and me
You know it's undeniable
Even though we tried it all
We brought the worst out in each other
I recall
We can't act it anymore

What doesn't kill you
It makes you stronger
And though I'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let you go

Say hello to good-bye

It's gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And I'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello...

And even though the tears will dry
I can't completely disconnect
Couldn't make the compromise
Didn't have a safety net

Say hello to goodbye
Heeey ya ya

Say hello, goodbye

Say hello to good-bye
It's gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And I'll survive without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, hello
To goodbye.

Monday, May 30, 2011 , 1:19 AM
I didn't blog/tweet/Facebook anything about 'it' on Sunday.

So I'm just gonna know that that date was once really important to me,
but now just a plain, painful memory.

I should be happy about this improvement.
But am I?

Monday, May 23, 2011 , 10:20 PM
Moving on.
This time, I'm gonna stay strong.

I'm not gonna be shaken.
I'm not gonna cry and whine.
I'm not gonna think of what used to be you and me.

I'm gonna stand still.
I'm gonna wait patiently.
I'm gonna shine.

And I will win you in this game.
I'll be the that smiling, charming lady you'd known me for.

Wait and see, wait and see.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011 , 11:50 PM
Urgh fuck this.
Thinking about the past,
maybe it had been better that you didn't tell me every 'truth'.

Now I think about it,
it really hurts.
(Yeah I know, truth hurts. I'm not dumb okay. Just trying to prove my point here.)
And I don't like being hurt.

That truth about you still being in love with her when you were with me really killed me inside out.

Just saying.

, 1:33 AM
3 months.
It’s 12.26am now.

A brand new day to most people, and of course to me too. However, today has a whole new meaning to me too.

It's officially 3 months after we broke up. Time flies huh. Being single for 3 months hasn’t been easy for me. I don’t know about you boy, but it sure was tough for me. Hiding all the pain was just so hard.

Spamming Taylor Swift’s songs every night, nodding my head and agreeing to every sentence of the lyrics to her songs. I smile, I laugh, I have fun, I play around, I target other guys, I flirt around, guess what? You’re still at the centre of my attention, at the back of my mind, at this place called - my heart.

Sometimes I really thought I’ve let you go. I convinced myself I should let you go ‘cos of all the negative stuff you’ve ever done, ever said. Even thinking about that crappy excuse you gave for breaking up just make me want to scream at you so bad. Then, teeny weeny bits appear and boom, here come memories all flowing back like some bullet train gone haywired. Then the next minute, you will see those tears flowing down.

I don’t know why I’m writing this. Neh, not like some anniversary post. I think, I just wanna cry it all out. I’m still not used to this. I’m still not used to being alone. I’m still not used to you not being here anymore.

You, and the others, may deem me as weak. So be it. I do have a right to miss someone whom I used to, (and I still want to believe that I still do) love a great deal. I really did love you a lot.

Did you?

Sunday, May 15, 2011 , 12:25 AM
A dream came true,
Never dreamed that there is this day I can start talking to him.
But nonetheless, it happened.

Thank God it happened.
Thank God for my courage.
Thank God for his openness.

Missing him real bad now :/
Maybe he's asleep already, or sth!

Shall aim to see his blotch of hair in school soon! LOL!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011 , 11:15 PM
How far apart both of us are after half a year,
It's the 22nd today.

And like the past 2 months, I've again wanted to tweet "IT'S 22ND TODAY!"
But then I stopped.
'Cos I know, it's supposed to stand for nothing at all.
And you'd not bother.
Or maybe you'd think in your mind why I would tweet that.
And you'd probably laugh and mock my foolishness for still being unable to let go when you have done so so easily.

But even after all this time, I just cannot forget.

It's officially half a year since I've known you.
And how ironic to see that damn arse calender in front of me with the 22nd box indicating '6th month', now slashed across by a marker,
'cos there is no longer a 6th month.
There is no longer someone there to tell me, "Hey, we've been together for 6 months. Happy 6th month!"

Now, I'm just recalling the only anniversary wish you ever wished me.
'Happy 3rd month! =D', you'd tweeted to me.

I don't know why I'm still thinking,
but probably little things trigger everything.

Because I'm a fool,
now the only thing I do is to look from afar.
And I know your heart is no longer with me,
and now we've probably become strangers.

I just can't believe it,
even up till now.

2 months and a week have passed,
and I'm still a fool waiting for a damn miracle to happen.
Just laugh at me.
Maybe I will wake up.

Friday, April 22, 2011 , 2:02 AM